
Welcome to the world of the plastic beach...

As many of you know, I was diagnosed with Systemic Lupus Erythematosus in August 2009. I was a healthy person for the most part until this last year and a half when noticeable changes started to happen. The lupus-related things I've been going through have not been easy, and talking about them is hard. Some days are better than others. Some days it's hard to imagine keeping this up every day for the rest of my life. Basically, my body is "allergic to itself" and my immune system attacks normal, healthy parts of the body. My SLE has been flaring since this summer and I'm still trying to get it under control with various medications and treatments. I try to be optimistic and remind myself to keep looking for the good things in life and not be weighed down by the way things have turned out so far. Thank you to everyone who has been supportive. I'm so lucky to have family and friends who love me unconditionally. I dream of the day when a cure for lupus is tangible. Until then, I'll keep looking for the silver lining...

The burning ember of my cigarette stares in relentlessly mockery of my half-assed attempts to drop the habit. I've lied to myself for years, placated by seemingly adequate health and the comfort that comes from knowing my peers also smoke. It's not unheard of for collegiate life to beget lackadaisical morals, but the good times are, in layman's terms, too legit to quit. Despite these facilitating factors, I understand it would be incorrect to put blame on anyone but myself for keeping up such a detrimental hobby.To be continued...
Who knows what tomorrow will bring
Maybe sunshine or maybe the rain
But as for me, I'll wait and see
And maybe it'll bring my love to me, oh...